the_undertow
Tue 6th September 2011, 8:41am
QUOTE(Casliber @ Tue 12th July 2011, 3:33am)

One thing about socking, I have been intrigued about folks' perceptions of sockmasters who have created a sock and successfully made a new persona that wrote and interacted substantively differently to the original account. Has anyone been really impressed at one which turned out to be a sock, and had otherwise been successful at sounding completely different?
Cas
(has this topic been asked before somewhere?)
It was Xmas, 25 years ago (picture it, Sicily...), and I received a floppy disk drive ($299) and a 300 baud modem, used ($180).
I never thought of creating a "persona." The Internet was always an extension of my real-life personality.
In the 80s, real names were common. But with the explosion of the web in the 90s, AOL encouraged handles, once again.
I can only say that 20 years ago, using your real name, associated with an email address, was looked down upon. Now, it is common place. That being said, my personality has always transcended whatever username I chose.
I got lucky with "Law," because I was attending graduate school, and creating articles was a way for me to study; hence the articles on taxation. However, I sold enough Google stock to live in San Diego for a year, without having a job. The more I drank, the more the temptation to alleviate myself of living behind a shell. So, I would tell people that I used to be the "undertow," without thinking that it would affect others.
Psychologists would say that I wanted to be "caught." That may be true. All pictures of me were real. My personality was real, and that's why I wasn't/couldn't be a successful sock, because I felt that while writing articles was a good hobby, it really isn't as fun without being honest about who I am. WP is a social structure; however the readers generally have no idea about that aspect.
To me, after being the undertow, it just became a game. I really had no grasp that every google search would lead to an article, and that some kid was going to benefit from my knowledge, and grasp of wiki-code. It's not a game. BIOs really affect people, which I why I've always advocated having them on a separate wiki or non-existant. I realize that I have created them, but I do so with neutrality, or so I hope.
People rely on WP. They shouldn't, but they do. I wouldn't have done anything different as undertow, but as Law, I may have. I could have shut the fuck up. But it came down to the same exact circumstance - I felt that someone was being bullied, and I rectified it. Temporarily.
I know this is long, but my point is that my personality will always transcend a screen name. So no, I was not a successful sock, in the traditional sense. If you can't be yourself, I just don't see the point in interacting with others. I was me. Still am. The "addiction" for me, was not in the actual creation - it was with the social interaction that was lacking in my life. It was popularity. It was fun and it should be.
I do a little editing here and there, but I do it as the undertow. Because I learned that I'd rather be a blacklisted editor, than create a persona that simply isn't mine. I've tried it, and it sucks. It's like any relationship, you just want someone who accepts you for being you - not for who you pretend to be. There's no fun in that.